19 Sept 2008

today, i didn't felt like doing anything. I did not have the urge and mood to do anything at all. looking at my things and schedule.i just don't feel like doing anything about it.i didn't want to care at all.ughhh...self ignorance and laziness struck me again.i just lay down on the bed turning all over the place.

my watch shows it's 9.30.the alarm was ringing every 9 minutes. i shut it off. and then i kept thinking to myself.should i attend today's FIN320? what will i miss? i calculated the number of times i've missed the tutorial.omg..its coming to the 4th time! i thought to myself "i should not miss another class of his" and there. i lay down on my sweet comfy bed thinking and thinking.making a decision so easy to make yet so hard to decide. watch shows the time.10.30am. i was lazy enough to force myself out of bed. so there, i decided not to go.and tried to go back to sleep. i cant. and i look back at the time. it's 10.45am. my last chance to get prepared for class. nope. still insist myself on not going. i then went back into sleep. finally!! not until my mum called me to ask me some personal stuff. and that bugged my sleep. i couldnt go back into sleep.

so from 11am, i was thinking about many things to myself. issues like why Anwar hasn't taken control of Putrajaya. and related issues about it. and then i was giggling to myself thinking about what Guo Rui said about Anwar. Such a joker!! he has very good sense of humour rofl! then was thinking about what should i wear to Genting later. and try to imagine what will happen in Genting.


didn't realized time went by soo fast. Suddenly it was already 12.30pm. i lay down for about 15 minutes and got up to get myself ready and dressed up. by the time i was ready it was already 1.45pm. Then i left "home" to withdraw cash and bought Nescafe. Supply of Nescafe went dry =( boarded the Metro bus to 1u. damn! Bus fare increased yet again! this time its an increase of 10 cents. was originally 90cents for a single trip to 1u. although it was 10cents but it's worth complaining. how can lar?10cents lei =( anyway shall talk about price increase and cost of living in the next post. reached 1u and boarded the bus straight up to Genting.By the time i reached the cable car station it was already 3.30pm

On the way up, i look around the secenaries around.nothing much has changed since my last trip up. that was about 6months ago. feels like yesterday. and all our memories came back into broad day light. i felt so much warm and love. i remembered every moment we had up here. those were our happiest days together up there. if you're reading this, i remember and will always do ya =)


anyway back to macro. i never knew singaporeans has poor knowledge and information about malaysia. sad case man. plus singaporeans call genting as "jenting" wtf. since when genting mortified as "jenting"? screw you singaporeans. oh what? you gonna ask Badawi to catch me and throw me into ISA? you're not even sure whether he'll be around till next tuesday anot.

straight went into casino.big deal. my second time in casino. big deal. police officers have to check my IC to verify my age. big deal. i look young to them. big deal. i never ever gamble in casino before. big deal. IM GONNA GAMBLE FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME. BIGGGG DEAL!!!! this is gonna be my very first try in gambling. i wanna taste what is it like to gamble and why some people get very addicted to it. i wanna understand the psychology of a gambler. i wanna understand the heart and mind of a gambler. i wanna fucking understand why they have to commit suicide gambling! BIG DEAL!

before giving a try out on gambling, i went with my buddies to look around in the casino.i spotted a few games where the high rollers were busy gambling. they dont bet in small amount. they bet in big amounts. BIG DEAL! i saw an old man, prollie in his 60's, betting his cash of RM1000. and he lost it.just like that. no hard feelings. walao eh!KNNCCB!! that money can last me for a month ok. cover everything some moree!! wuwu!!!

suet ni gave me a RM5 chip to try my first luck. ever heard of this saying? gambling for the first time will guarantee you to win money. i didn't believe it. so i place my bet on 4. i don't what game is it. is selecting your number. then you'll just the roll the ball into the selection of numbers. POCK!! wah!!! won RM10 lee!! BIG DEAL!! was damn excited! i tried my luck again. bet on difference numbers this time. 9 and 6. both didn't hit. heart starts to feel the pain and uneasyness.

i wasnt all that happy and satisfied. went for another few more rounds to observe gamblers. in the end i decided to change my precious RM50 into chips for gambling. i started with this.

Played some gambling game which i dont know what is it called.its basically choosing the number of your choice and then just roll the ball onto the numbers. when the ball stops at that number, it's either your choice number is there or you lose. well, i won my first round for the first time.

have you ever heard of a saying that goes "if you're gambling for the first time, you'll get lucky" i believe every single word of it. it was my first time gambling and i won!i won RM10!! BIG DEAL!!! wakakkaakaka

then i tried my luck at the same table again for a few times. but i didn't won any since then =( and then my friends and i went to another table. this time is i played a game where you roll the wheel of fortune. minimum bet = RM5. i placed my bet on the RM10. and hit!!i won RM50 from RM5. BIG DEAL!! i'm damn fcuking happy!!


i wasnt satisfied. greed and self ignorance hit me! now i understand why gamblers cant live the gambling table once they start winning. i seriously felt it was my lucky day. i went on gambling. from RM75 to RM25. damn! i wasn't satisfied cause i lost all my money on the same fcuking table! i didn't believe my luck! i played over and over again...until this

=(

so i went down genting and commit suicide =( =( =( =(

no i wont be dumb la. if i committed suicide, i wont be posting this post lar!

but the temptation was running high once i started winning. now i can really understand the feelings of a gambler. their willingness to do anything to win. it'll take you at all cost no matter what happens. you're willing to borrow from ah long, gamble all your life savings, commit suicide etc. very sad =(

i went back KL with a heavy and sad heart. but i learned a valuable lesson.

Don't gamble xD