better in time

why at this moment im still missing you??what am i still thinking abt you deeply?why am i having thoughts abt our past and all our memories??why??i don't get it..im not sad when i miss you.i dont have that heartbeat anymore when i think of you?i dont have that warm feeling anymore when i think of you.i dont have any happiness when i think of you.i always talk abt the bad and sad things we had to my friends...i still dont get it why..why am i still thinking abt you?why am i missing you??you said i wanted the break up soo much.yesh i did.why am i asking you questions like "who are you with?", "you have a new bf?"why?? why why why??!!

im confused you know.i really am..i just wanna get myself outta of this.i just need to get you outta my mind.i just need too...

now i know why..caused im used to be with you..for the past 1 and the half years.my life has completely changed.my life has now turned upside down..when im with you.now that you're gone.. im feeling the emptiness in me..the loneliness looming in my heart and soul.the sad feeling just came up all over again.its different now..not with you.

i can never be with you anymore.this relationship wasnt meant to be.God sent us the message earlier..this relationship was never meant to be.He told us to stop it before it gets deeper and deeper.and now its this deep.deep like a well..its hard for me to climb back up.no one can help me out...its dark and cold in here.i feel the loneliness and darkness eating me slowly..

we are both the victim here.im sorry for everything.im sorry we couldnt move on.the timing wasnt perfect.sacrifices cant be made.for circumstances we know and we can never run away from it.no point denying it.its like a coin with 2 face.a tail and a head.we have to choose either one.we cant be in the middle of it.its the ultimate answer for our woes.no point running away and avoiding it forever.if not now, its the future.its hard to be us anymore.so much hardship and difficulties.we were never meant to be.

i had love you so much for the past 1.5 years.so much of love and tenderness.i loved you.but is never the same now.never again.

the war is over.the fight is over.lets make peace and there we see sunlight again..

this is song is specially dedicated for you.

with love...